Help for a little girl

I can't shake her out of my mind since learning about this little girl's condition.

I can't help but worry about my little Sean...

Life is so vulnerable, even more so for a helpless little kid who perhaps still can't understand what bad bad cancer can do to her body.

Please help out in whatever way you can to make Charmaine feel better.

Please pray hard for her.

God bless.

U can only be as happy as u want to be

I've been having alot of flashback memories of my childhood lately.

And I've been tearing quite alot.

We are all part of history in the making isn't it?

Things that have happened in the past, the laughter and the tears, the things that we've shared with our siblings and loved ones...they're all but history now.

Although we are still making history now, but...it's different already, right?

Cos we're all grown up and drifted apart...

You have ur own life and I have mine.

I feel sorry and guilty for not being more around for my sis.

I ought to do more for her. To spend more time with her.

To let her know and understand that, she's loved by us all.

Ultimately, I've allowed some things to slid out of hand.

After all, I have only a pair of hands, so how much can I hold onto?

I wish I can do more to help her.

It's a living nightmare having to live in ur own world and go around in circles with the same thoughts over and over again. I know it's hard for her. And that's when I'll cry. Cos who can stand such madness? I guess deep down, she doesn't want to be this situation too, to be trapped in ur own mind and not able to look out and breathe.

They say happiness is a choice. But if one is not capable of making such a choice, then what?

I wish she can be happier.

Sis, I love u ok. U must bear that in mind, please.

8 months!

Sean is 8 months old today!

Time flies isn't it.

That also means I've been a mother for 8 months.

Sometimes u think if it's all worth it.

Indeed, being a parent is not easy. There's so many things you have to give up.

Like dining out. You can't just eat at ur own pace anymore.

Previously, I would cut my food into small bites and savour every bit.

Now, most of the time, I have to gobble everything down and pacify Sean before he kicks up a big fuss in the restaurant. And this without wiping my mouth clean. Haha. Talk about table etiquette or lady manners. Now I have zilch of that.

And what about spending coupletime with Steve?

I'll be glad if we can spend time to even talk properly now. Cos by the time we have time to ourselves, it's either we're too tired or I'll be expressing milk and he'll be working on his laptop

I can't just wash my hair on any day i like cos Steve may be working late and so i can't afford to spend time in the bathroom.

Usually it's just a quick bath of not more than 10 minutes then i'm done.

I hardly have time to do a body scrub or facial mask anymore.

I hardly have time to empty my bowels totally. Gosh tat sounds gross.

I can’t just put on makeup now cos Sean likes to touch my face so much and I don’t want him to eat in any funny stuff.

Some people would say, what's so difficult in looking after a child?

哭了，不是給他喝奶，就是跟他换尿布。

有这样简单吗？

But indeed it's worth it when I see my son growing.

And that’s why parenthood is so tough, and thus so rewarding.

Because you are bringing up a child and nurturing a life, all the while shaping his future.

And not just any other life, but one that comes from you. One that you gave.

It’s still quite overwhelming looking at Sean, taking in the fact that he’s my son, that he came out from me and Steve.

Oh the wonder of it all is still breathtaking.

It’s miraculous.

CNY Photos

At my mum's place for reunion dinner with Zining jie jie

With Shermaine jie jie

He's my handsome boy isn't it?

On the 11th day of CNY....

Happy Lunar New Year!!

Abit late but still, sincere greetings from me, Steve and Sean!

It's Sean's first lunar new year celebration with us and he is such a joy to be with! And I must say he's a real babe magnet and he charmed everyone with his 'Gongxi Gongxi' hand gesture. I'm immensely proud of him!

Have lots of CNY photos to upload but they're all in the camera and I can't find the cardreader. So here are some from the phone first. Sean's very cute and he's growing so well. He's also dining with us now when we eat out. He's a gem!!!